Gay Eskimo...

Choose

Choosing
Who to know
Who to hurt
Who to love

Choosing
Who to want
Who to need
Who to leave

Choosing
Which one you want
Him or her…
Or maybe both…

Choosing
Who you want
Who to use
Who to loose

Choosing
One or the other
Right or wrong
But which is which?

It's quite hard isn't it ?

Tonight

Close your eyes tonight,
Try not to think about tomorrow,
Close your eyes tonight,
Don't let me go!


The tears continue falling,
I feel my blood seeping through,
But I'll keep on crawling,
Let our love begin anew!


The ghostly flare in your eyes,
It's irreplaceable,
Just like dragon fire,
Please don't let me fall!


If I take your hand tonight,
Can you lead me home?
I won't put up a fight,
I don't want to be alone!


We don't have to think about tomorrow,
Just don't abandon me,
I just want you to be with me when I go,
My vision is blurry, I can barely see. . .


I force a dreaded and saddened smile,
And reach up to caress your cheek,
I tell you I forgive you; don't cry,
Because now I can die with the love I seeked. . .


*taken from somewhere...

The Dream

Swimming in a graceful river of time,
I found a moment to leave my beating heart.
To everything I've held,
That something we've all treasured.
It is this moment,
As I held you in my arms,
Kissing,
Savoring, every drop of your lips.
Expecting the sudden stop to this eternity...
The dream I know I have to say goodbye.

Anyone else but you...

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on your back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

I'll kiss you on the brain in the shadow of the train
I'll kiss you all starry eyed my body swingin' from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

Pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't you forgive me
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

I will find my niche in your car
With my MP3, DVD, rumble pack guitar
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

Up up down down left right left right B A start
Just because we use cheats doesn't mean we're not smart
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

You are always tryin' to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
You want more fans, I want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

Don Quixote was a steel driving man
My name is Adam I'm your biggest fan
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

Squinched up your face and did a dance
Shook a little turd out of the bottom of your pants
I don't see what anyone can see in anyone else...
but you...

No One's There

You and me
We have no faces
Soon our lives they’ll be erased
Do you think they will remember?
Or will we just be replaced

Oh I wish that I could see,
How I wish that I could fly
All the things that hang above me
To a place where I can cry

You and me
We have no faces
They don’t see us anymore
Without love as they had promised
And no faith for what’s in store

Where are all these feelings hiding?
Dancing in and out my mind
Burning up all that I long for
Feeding me untill my decline

Where are you my soul is bleeding
I am searching in my blind
All alone and bound forever
Trapped inside me for all time

To all these nameless feelings
I cant deal within my life
To all these greedy people
Trying to feed on what is mine

You’ve got to fill your hunger
And stop fucking with my mind
I know its time
to leave these places far behind

So what can it be?
No one hears me call,
Echoes back at me
No ones there.

For Reasons Unknown

I pack my case. I check my face.
I look a little bit older.
I look a little bit colder.
With one deep breath, and one big step,
I move a little bit closer.
I move a little bit closer.
For reasons unknown.

I caught my stride.
I flew and flied.
I know if destiny’s kind,
I’ve got the rest of my mind.
But my heart, it don’t beat,
it don’t beat the way it used to.
And my eyes, they don’t see you no more.
And my lips, they don’t kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to,
and my eyes don’t recognize you no more.

For reasons unknown; for reasons unknown.

There was an open chair.
We sat down in the open chair.
I said if destiny’s kind,
I’ve got the rest of my mind.
But my heart, it don’t beat, it don’t beat the way it used to.
And my eyes, they don’t see you no more.
And my lips, they don’t kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to,
and my eyes don’t recognize you at all.

For reasons unknown; for reasons unknown.

I said my heart, it don’t beat, it don’t beat the way it used to
and my eyes don’t recognize you no more.
And my lips, they don’t kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to,
and my eyes don’t recognize you no more.

For reasons unknown;
for reasons unknown;
for reasons unknown;
for reasons unknown.




*this is taken from the song 'For Reasons Unknown' by The Killers

Hmm...

Don't turn away,
i pray you've heard,
the words I've spoken,
Dare to believe,
for one last time,
and then I'll let,
the darkness cover me,
Deny everything,
Slowly walk away,
to breath again,
on my own...

Tight Rope

My words are weapons
in which I murder you with
please don't be scared
please do not turn your head
we are the future
the 21st century dyslexic
glue sniffing cybersluts
with homicidal minds and handguns
we are insane
nothing will change
we are insane
nothing will change

there is a thin line between what is
good and what is evil and
I will tiptoe down that line but
I will feel unstable
my life is a circus
and I am tripping down the tightrope
well, there is nothing to save me now
so i will not look down
and again, and again
and again, it happens again
and again, and again

there's no beginning
there is no end
there is only change
progression backwards
is this where we are heading
take back your soul
forget your emptiness

there is a thin line between what is
good and what is evil and
I will tiptoe down that line but
I will feel unstable
my life is a circus
and I am tripping down the tightrope
well, there is nothing to save me now
I'm falling to the ground
falling to the ground
down to the ground

i speak of madness
my heart and soul
I cry for people who aint got control
lets take our sanity
lets take compassion
and be responsible for every action
hell no
know how
the way, the way, the way, know how
the way, know how

there is a thin line between what is
good and what is evil and
I will tiptoe down that line but
I will feel unstable
my life is a circus
and I am tripping down the tightrope
well, there is nothing to save me now
so I will not look down

there is a thin line between what is
good and what is evil and
I will tiptoe down that line but
I will feel unstable
my life is a circus
and I am tripping down the tightrope
well, there is nothing to save me now
I'm falling to the ground
down to the ground
all the way down.



*taken from the song 'Tight Rope' by Papa Roach...

Penjara

Termenung ku kesepian,
Berlinangan air mata,
Kenangan lalu mengenang kembali,
Mengenangkan aku di sini,

Termenung ku kesepian,
Berlinangan air mata,
Membasahi pipi ku hingga ku tak terdaya,
Mengenangkan aku di sini,

Mengapa aku di penjara,
Terseksa menanggung derita,
Adakah ini hukuman orang yang berdosa,
Tak sanggup lagi ku terima,
Penghinaan sedemikian rupa,
dari mereka yang amat dengki, sombong dan hina,

Mengapa aku dipenjara,
Terseksa aku menanggung derita...

Moon...

Moon, who you shine your light,
Bright, on the Paris night,
See, how a man suffers all for love,

Clear, solitary stars,
So far, when the day returns,
Please hear, up there so high the cry of the world,

Please hear the cry, of a man in pain,
For whom, all those million stars,
Don't shine, like those shining eyes,
He loves, with a mortal love,
Moon...

Moon, please don't disappear,
Before, you have time to hear,
Just hear, how cries the wounded heart,

Please hear the cry, a bleeding heart he cries,
He cries, though his heart is full,
His voice, is over mountain flies,
So high, that i know it flies to you,
Moon...

See, how a man aspires,
To join, his poor voice with angels...




*taken from the Notre-Dame De Paris soundtrack,
performed by Bruno Pelletier...

Fairy Tale

This story
Has a simple beginning
But is close to no end
Happy or sad
It continues
To this day
Real life wraps around
A fairytale romance
Unbound
Two people
Two souls
Living in one heartbeat
They met in a moment
Lost in time
That’s when both knew
Miracles and wishes came true
Wasting no time
They fell in love
And continue loving
Through Good and bad
To this very day
After all the years
Through all the tears
These real life fairytale lovers
Will always remain as one            

Reply for Comment from Lizzy Seri on What Its Like...

hmm... another chance aye... how is it like... is it like a beautiful blueberry poison muffins... or is it like a mutated deformed sweet apple... hmm... let me think about it... or how about you...

What It's Like

It's quiet here
Like a floating kite
Guess this is what
The end is like

The colors faded
From my life
Guess this is what
The end is like

Not feeling good about it
Not feeling bad
I'm not feeling anything
Just living, no more

Spent a lot of time
Thinking about my life
Guess this is what
The end is like

Got nothing to do
I just sit here and write
Guess this is what
The end is like

It's too bad it happened
I didn't see it come
I was too busy
Trying to hold on

It feels like nothing
Living my life
Guess this is what
The end is like

Got you on my mind
While I'm on my bike
Guess this is what
The end is like

I wake up at night
And know i'm alone
I just sit there and cry
At your number on my phone

When all of your laughter
Bleeds from my eyes
I'll know I've found out
What the end is like

On Love

the average poet
would describe
love
perhaps as a delicate flower,
beautiful,
fleeting,
et cetera.

i am not one much for poets,
nor love.

as it stands,
i find love
much like a wet cat
trapped
in a rusted-over
garbage can,
rolled at a ferocious
velocity
down a pockmarked, concretehill.

you'll probably feel like shit
afterwards,
but as it stands
you can't help but smile.

Becouse of Me

I wish i could explain to you
All the feelings I have for you
That I hold
Deep in my heart

I hate the face
I see in the mirror
Wish i could see
What you see in me

Wish I could tell you
How much I think of you
How much I need you
But I'm scared to

There is a look in your eyes
I know I would see
And even though that look
Is because of me

I want to be selfish
And never see you
Look that way at me

My Heart

Each time I touch you
I see you pull away
And I'm crying on the inside
Wish I knew what to say

Think I want to
Give my real heart
The one I've been hiding
Since my life fell apart

I want you to know
I think your the key
To unlocking my heart
Don't think I can do it
All on my own

But each time I glance at you
And you catch my eye
I see you locking some part of you
Away from my prying eyes

Thought my heart was already broken
But I must have been wrong

Because everytime
I'm away from you
I feel all alone
Everytime you pull away from me
I want to die

I think you complete me
And now my broken heart and I
Begin to cry.

A Lover's Vow

What good is it to be a vagrant of thy love?
If not thou, then whom shalt see my pure heart?
For so long I have been hiding it on the above;
If our love is to be, then it is already a grand start.

If it is not, then my heart wilt be withered in pain at peril.
I am begging for thine help, for I am in great distress;
What is this feeling that covers my heart in apparel?
I wilt shed my tears as if I have been a lover obsessed.

Even if thou art the day and I am the night,
Even if it means I need to vanquish all my foes,
My love to thee and thy love to me is what is right.

I wilt walk through this dark path and be alright,
And bring rejoice and splendor leaving my woes,
For I am the one guided by thy bright.

p.s. this was actually taken from somewhere that i can't seem to recall...

Penguins Will Rule The World

Blue penguin, green penguin
And orange penguin too
Yellow penguin, red penguin
But the biggest penguin is you

Penguins are big
Penguins are small
I doubt they ever
Play with a ball

Penguins here, penguins there
The penguins are everywhere

When you live as a penguin
Your happy as can be
Jumping, swimming, dancing, waving
So all the world can see

Penguins will rule the world
Everywhere we look
And if you don't belive me
Just look in any book

When you see a penguin
Having fun
Join and play
In the sun

Penguins here, penguins there
Penguins are everywhere
So don't be afraid
Come and join
The penguin games
You might get a coin

Colour Blind

Walking blindly through shadows unending
No color left to paint my view

Fighting wildly against hidden fires
Black and white is all I see

Now I realize nothing here
Belongs to who I think I am

Secret hue come to my eye
Colorblindness is destroying me

Can’t find reality in this darkness
I can’t see a thing all I can do

Is listen…
To whispers and regrets
And all I can do

Is feel this anguish
And hopeless disparity..
But all I want to know

Is that I’m not
Lost in this place
And all I want to know

Is will I ever
See the light
Again?

p.s. i'm really colour blind... just so you know... and this was taken from a book...