Hmm...

Don't turn away,
i pray you've heard,
the words I've spoken,
Dare to believe,
for one last time,
and then I'll let,
the darkness cover me,
Deny everything,
Slowly walk away,
to breath again,
on my own...

Tight Rope

My words are weapons
in which I murder you with
please don't be scared
please do not turn your head
we are the future
the 21st century dyslexic
glue sniffing cybersluts
with homicidal minds and handguns
we are insane
nothing will change
we are insane
nothing will change

there is a thin line between what is
good and what is evil and
I will tiptoe down that line but
I will feel unstable
my life is a circus
and I am tripping down the tightrope
well, there is nothing to save me now
so i will not look down
and again, and again
and again, it happens again
and again, and again

there's no beginning
there is no end
there is only change
progression backwards
is this where we are heading
take back your soul
forget your emptiness

there is a thin line between what is
good and what is evil and
I will tiptoe down that line but
I will feel unstable
my life is a circus
and I am tripping down the tightrope
well, there is nothing to save me now
I'm falling to the ground
falling to the ground
down to the ground

i speak of madness
my heart and soul
I cry for people who aint got control
lets take our sanity
lets take compassion
and be responsible for every action
hell no
know how
the way, the way, the way, know how
the way, know how

there is a thin line between what is
good and what is evil and
I will tiptoe down that line but
I will feel unstable
my life is a circus
and I am tripping down the tightrope
well, there is nothing to save me now
so I will not look down

there is a thin line between what is
good and what is evil and
I will tiptoe down that line but
I will feel unstable
my life is a circus
and I am tripping down the tightrope
well, there is nothing to save me now
I'm falling to the ground
down to the ground
all the way down.



*taken from the song 'Tight Rope' by Papa Roach...

Penjara

Termenung ku kesepian,
Berlinangan air mata,
Kenangan lalu mengenang kembali,
Mengenangkan aku di sini,

Termenung ku kesepian,
Berlinangan air mata,
Membasahi pipi ku hingga ku tak terdaya,
Mengenangkan aku di sini,

Mengapa aku di penjara,
Terseksa menanggung derita,
Adakah ini hukuman orang yang berdosa,
Tak sanggup lagi ku terima,
Penghinaan sedemikian rupa,
dari mereka yang amat dengki, sombong dan hina,

Mengapa aku dipenjara,
Terseksa aku menanggung derita...

Moon...

Moon, who you shine your light,
Bright, on the Paris night,
See, how a man suffers all for love,

Clear, solitary stars,
So far, when the day returns,
Please hear, up there so high the cry of the world,

Please hear the cry, of a man in pain,
For whom, all those million stars,
Don't shine, like those shining eyes,
He loves, with a mortal love,
Moon...

Moon, please don't disappear,
Before, you have time to hear,
Just hear, how cries the wounded heart,

Please hear the cry, a bleeding heart he cries,
He cries, though his heart is full,
His voice, is over mountain flies,
So high, that i know it flies to you,
Moon...

See, how a man aspires,
To join, his poor voice with angels...




*taken from the Notre-Dame De Paris soundtrack,
performed by Bruno Pelletier...

Fairy Tale

This story
Has a simple beginning
But is close to no end
Happy or sad
It continues
To this day
Real life wraps around
A fairytale romance
Unbound
Two people
Two souls
Living in one heartbeat
They met in a moment
Lost in time
That’s when both knew
Miracles and wishes came true
Wasting no time
They fell in love
And continue loving
Through Good and bad
To this very day
After all the years
Through all the tears
These real life fairytale lovers
Will always remain as one            

Reply for Comment from Lizzy Seri on What Its Like...

hmm... another chance aye... how is it like... is it like a beautiful blueberry poison muffins... or is it like a mutated deformed sweet apple... hmm... let me think about it... or how about you...

What It's Like

It's quiet here
Like a floating kite
Guess this is what
The end is like

The colors faded
From my life
Guess this is what
The end is like

Not feeling good about it
Not feeling bad
I'm not feeling anything
Just living, no more

Spent a lot of time
Thinking about my life
Guess this is what
The end is like

Got nothing to do
I just sit here and write
Guess this is what
The end is like

It's too bad it happened
I didn't see it come
I was too busy
Trying to hold on

It feels like nothing
Living my life
Guess this is what
The end is like

Got you on my mind
While I'm on my bike
Guess this is what
The end is like

I wake up at night
And know i'm alone
I just sit there and cry
At your number on my phone

When all of your laughter
Bleeds from my eyes
I'll know I've found out
What the end is like

On Love

the average poet
would describe
love
perhaps as a delicate flower,
beautiful,
fleeting,
et cetera.

i am not one much for poets,
nor love.

as it stands,
i find love
much like a wet cat
trapped
in a rusted-over
garbage can,
rolled at a ferocious
velocity
down a pockmarked, concretehill.

you'll probably feel like shit
afterwards,
but as it stands
you can't help but smile.

Becouse of Me

I wish i could explain to you
All the feelings I have for you
That I hold
Deep in my heart

I hate the face
I see in the mirror
Wish i could see
What you see in me

Wish I could tell you
How much I think of you
How much I need you
But I'm scared to

There is a look in your eyes
I know I would see
And even though that look
Is because of me

I want to be selfish
And never see you
Look that way at me

My Heart

Each time I touch you
I see you pull away
And I'm crying on the inside
Wish I knew what to say

Think I want to
Give my real heart
The one I've been hiding
Since my life fell apart

I want you to know
I think your the key
To unlocking my heart
Don't think I can do it
All on my own

But each time I glance at you
And you catch my eye
I see you locking some part of you
Away from my prying eyes

Thought my heart was already broken
But I must have been wrong

Because everytime
I'm away from you
I feel all alone
Everytime you pull away from me
I want to die

I think you complete me
And now my broken heart and I
Begin to cry.

A Lover's Vow

What good is it to be a vagrant of thy love?
If not thou, then whom shalt see my pure heart?
For so long I have been hiding it on the above;
If our love is to be, then it is already a grand start.

If it is not, then my heart wilt be withered in pain at peril.
I am begging for thine help, for I am in great distress;
What is this feeling that covers my heart in apparel?
I wilt shed my tears as if I have been a lover obsessed.

Even if thou art the day and I am the night,
Even if it means I need to vanquish all my foes,
My love to thee and thy love to me is what is right.

I wilt walk through this dark path and be alright,
And bring rejoice and splendor leaving my woes,
For I am the one guided by thy bright.

p.s. this was actually taken from somewhere that i can't seem to recall...

Penguins Will Rule The World

Blue penguin, green penguin
And orange penguin too
Yellow penguin, red penguin
But the biggest penguin is you

Penguins are big
Penguins are small
I doubt they ever
Play with a ball

Penguins here, penguins there
The penguins are everywhere

When you live as a penguin
Your happy as can be
Jumping, swimming, dancing, waving
So all the world can see

Penguins will rule the world
Everywhere we look
And if you don't belive me
Just look in any book

When you see a penguin
Having fun
Join and play
In the sun

Penguins here, penguins there
Penguins are everywhere
So don't be afraid
Come and join
The penguin games
You might get a coin

Colour Blind

Walking blindly through shadows unending
No color left to paint my view

Fighting wildly against hidden fires
Black and white is all I see

Now I realize nothing here
Belongs to who I think I am

Secret hue come to my eye
Colorblindness is destroying me

Can’t find reality in this darkness
I can’t see a thing all I can do

Is listen…
To whispers and regrets
And all I can do

Is feel this anguish
And hopeless disparity..
But all I want to know

Is that I’m not
Lost in this place
And all I want to know

Is will I ever
See the light
Again?

p.s. i'm really colour blind... just so you know... and this was taken from a book...

Reply Comment #1 on Burning

to whoever wrote the comment to me...

hey...

thanx for the comment... i really appreciate it... it's not like don't want to be happy... i just can't be happy... it's really hard to fake a smile when you're not capable or have the strength or spirit to smile... you know what i mean right... it's just that the way things around me always held me down and keep crushing me with the burden and pressures... i like to observe... and what i wrote is only what i see and feel... that's all... i'm a neutral kind of guy... i can be relax... i can be happy... i can be happier than any living thing in this world... but... things can be pretty ugly...

Pride

It is said that pride was the first sin, and therefore is the worst. I guess that I agree with that. After all, we humans are imperfect creatures: we lie, cheat, betray, kill, and so many other things. The list goes on and on. No one in the entire history of human existence had any right to be haughty because everyone has sinned.

The only way that we can be proud is by being perfect, but a perfect person wouldn’t be conceited anyway because arrogance is a fault in their character. The perfect person wouldn’t be flawless, and that doesn’t make any sense at all.

When a person looks at it from Gods point of view smugness is even more ridiculous. To him, I’m sure; it would be silly to be so proud of ourselves. After all, we have minds that forget, beauty that fades with age, nothing lasts with us.

So, we should be thankful for the gifts that God has given us but not be filled with false pride.

Humans and Bubbles

Humans are like bubbles.

They're born with a breath.
They float away from their maker.
Possibly bumping into others.
Maybe even combining.
But then...
after their short and
perilous journey...
They pop.

like we as humans
are born from our mothers.
We grow up & move out.
We make friends and memories.
Quite possibly get married.
And then we get old,
we fade out...
and die.

Teenage Mind

Why do adults think teenagers will heed their ‘words of wisdom’ if they repeat them three times? Four? A hundred? AT TOP VOLUME? Do they really believe we’re that thick headed? We heard you. The first time. We’re beating ourselves up worse than you can imagine…

Dirty Place

Sit in silence and hear voices through walls
very clearly
Listen wearily

Wonder numbly of this frail existence
What’s the purpose?
Seems so worthless

Face the world - make sure to wear a smile
Bright and shining
Hide behind it

Peer through dusty windows with a look of disgust.
A town holds many secrets
but what if there is no one to trust?

Birds sing for the sun but she will not show her face.
She’s given up on givin’ life to this dirty place.

We think we thrive but we are slowly dying
Just time we’re buyingand children crying…

Burning

Do you really understand what it's like
to be standing on the outside lookin' in
All your thoughts collide into one car wreck
never able to separate what's fantasy from what's happenin'

Take me, twist me, change me
make me into everything you wanted me to be

And [you], you just stay watching me burn down this ship
And [I], I just pray that this time I won't slip

You can't escape the thoughts
not from this game we're playing [you've not won]
Can't let these things change me and make me
can't let you persecute me for the things you think I've done

Shove me, punch me, beat me
make me pay for all this damage I have done

And [you], you just stay watching me burn down this ship
And [I], I just pray that this time I won't slip

Take this, they scream, it'll fix all your problems
make those highs not so high and those lows not so low
take this, and you'll be just like the rest of us, they say
but then, how will I know friend from foe

Take me, twist me, change me
make me into everything you wanted me to be

And [you], you just stay watching me burn down this ship
And [I], I just pray that this time I won't slip

All this pain [it won't go away]
Your face, won't disappear from my dreams
All these things [I remember] can't stay
All this pain, I don't know what it all means

Shove me, punch me, beat me
make me pay for all this damage I have done

And [you], you just stay watching me burn down this ship
And [I], I just pray that this time I won't slip

Leveller

Lies of the wicked cause the world to descend
The ignorant are unaware of the end
My word is law so you'd best not offend
I level cities with the stroke of a pen

Carpet bombing wastes all my enemies
I haven't fear that I will reap what I seed
I rule the world with the power of greed
I speak in dollars and the masses will heed

It's easy living when your heart's made of stone
Punish all; ripping flesh from the bone
Without remorse I will crush all my foes
I'll break their backs with cash, in lieu of blows

I am a god if cash is the king
The earth is merely just a jewel on my ring
I will ascend, my praises you'll sing
Or you will suffer in the hell that I bring

I level cities with the stroke of a pen
I slaughter nations that I no longer need
I don't care about the blood on my hands
I will never give in to your demands
I will bring your paltry life to a close
I'll inflict on you a scorpion sting
I'll kill your children and I'll conquer your lands
I'll smash your soul until you love my command

I level cities with the stroke of a pen
I level cities with the stroke of a pen