to whoever wrote the comment to me...
hey...
thanx for the comment... i really appreciate it... it's not like don't want to be happy... i just can't be happy... it's really hard to fake a smile when you're not capable or have the strength or spirit to smile... you know what i mean right... it's just that the way things around me always held me down and keep crushing me with the burden and pressures... i like to observe... and what i wrote is only what i see and feel... that's all... i'm a neutral kind of guy... i can be relax... i can be happy... i can be happier than any living thing in this world... but... things can be pretty ugly...